The Hope on the Horizon

Darkness sometimes sweeps the lives of the oppressed. It envelops them whole in an endless void of nothingness. No dreams, no laughter, no chances exist; nothing but the suffocating and ominous aura of those who had given up. They gave up everything; their dreams, their happiness, and their lives with no fight, while lamenting their helplessness. They wish for someone to release them from their misery. But, when will that person come? Who will be their savior? In the midst of their lamentations they had lost sight of the golden rays of the sun that crept out in the horizon; illuminating the darkness that surrounded their lives for so long. But, blinded by their own darkness of heart they failed to see that glimmer of hope that appeared everyday with the rays of the sun. They failed to see the obvious.

Opposites

As the sun sets in the west; it rises in the east.

As death claims a life; a new one is born elsewhere.

As a tear trickles down a cheek; laughter is heard in the distance.

As a war cry echoes; a cry for peace sounds.

As we feel sorrow; we feel happiness.

Those are opposing things that cannot exist together, yet they cannot exist without each other.

A lifelong dream

She heard the cheers and applauds of the audience as she descended the flight of stairs that lead her to the stage. It was her first live performance. She was intoxicated with the fact that she, out of all the performers was chosen to perform in front of thousands of people. “This is my moment; I shouldn’t make a single mistake,” she thought. She was ready; until the curtain opened, and the spotlights shone on her. She froze, and didn’t know what to do. She forgot the words of her song; beads of sweat trickled down her spine. The audience hushed now; waited for her to start singing; anticipated her every move. She still didn’t utter a word. But, suddenly, a child came out of nowhere and rushed towards her on the stage while holding a rose. He stopped right in front of her, handed her the rose, grinned and said, “I want to be just like you when I grow up.” He turned around and ran back to where he stood, hidden among the audience. That little act of innocence from the little child brought her back to reality. The reality that she was here to perform for a reason; to make her lifelong dream come true, and that is to perform with all her heart for an audience who will listen and savor every note and sound that comes out of her mouth; and therefore she sang, the song that soothed the heart, expressed what cannot be expressed, and that healed the broken heart.

A split second of eternity

One of the strangest things about life is that sometimes you get the feeling that you are capable of living forever. This feeling manifests in many different and odd ways. It could be by seeing your child smile for the first time; seeing the sun rise across the horizon; feeling the night breeze on your face; smelling the sweet aroma of a flower; or even by seeing a stranger smiling back at you. However, it’s not the fact of living forever that counts; but the bliss and fulfillment that takes place in that split second of an unattainable dream.

The Harsh Truth

I opened my eyes to a pitch-black night. My whole body was enveloped in darkness like no other. I tried to feel my way through, but I stumbled and scabbed my knee on the sharp rocks. I stood up and started walking again, but I tripped on yet another rock. Again, I stood up and tried to focus my vision, in a failed attempt to glimpse something that could be my guide.

Suddenly an apparition appeared before me. “Who is it?” I asked my self..I looked harder, and there she was. “Its you” I called with a relief. “Finally someone I know”. But, as I was saying that she suddenly turned away and started walking to what seemed like a flicker of light..“Wait. Where are you going? And what’s that over there?” I called. She didn’t answer, and on and on she went not heeding my calls.

I ran after her trying to follow her into the light, but I bumped into something invisible and fell back. I stood up and ran towards the light, however, I fell back again as I hit that invisible wall front of me. I banged on it with my hands, kicked it, and threw anything my hands grasped towards it, but that thing did not budge nor break.

As fear started to creep into my heart, I started screaming and calling for that apparition to listen to me. “Please listen to me” I called. No answer. I fell on my knees as the tears started trickling down my cheeks.

All of a sudden, the apparition turned around and looked me straight in the eye. “STAND UP” she yelled. Dumbstruck, I just stood there looking at her face. “STAND UP” she yelled more forcefully this time. I stood up, dazed and not knowing what I should do. “Look at yourself” she said, “your pathetic”. I gave no answer, as I didn’t know what she was talking about.

“I don’t understand” I answered back, “Why am I pathetic?”..She snickered and said, “Look at what you’ve done to yourself. And you say you don’t understand!!”. I stared back with the same confused expression on my face. She started talking again. “You!! Called upon this darkness to yourself, and then you had the guts to ask others to help you get out of it”.. “You built your dreams, and then you’ve set the walls that blocked your way from achieving them, while blaming others for standing in your way”. “This darkness you see around you was created by you. That wall you hit just now was built by you”, she said. “That light over there is your only chance. You either break the walls around you with all your might and run to that light before it fades; or just give up now and drown in your own darkness of mind. It’s your choice. Fight for what you want or just give up this instant.”

At that moment it struck me. The painful truth that I had pushed away for so long, had tore away at my heart as I realized my own stupidity. All those years that I spent lamenting my unfulfilled dreams were a result of my own lack of real determination. I decided then and there to fight. To fight for my dreams or die trying. I raised my head to look at the apparition, but she was already gone with no trace of her ever being there.

I fought with all my might to break that wall and to dissipate the darkness that shrouded my mind for so long. Again, and again, and again I fought. Not giving up, until that wall was shattered, and that flicker of light shone brighter and brighter. Finally, the light enveloped me whole into its womb to give birth to my new self.

The new self that believed in dreams and that they do come true with perseverance, patience, and courage.

Remember this: Fight for your dreams or die trying.

Lost

She flipped through the pages of her life looking for a clue to the cause that made her the way she is today. She skimmed the faces she saw, the incidents that happened, the conversations she had; yet an answer did not come.

Why am I like this? What happened to me? Why did I give up hope? When did I lose my way? Why did I go astray? Endless questions forming in her mind, like a whirlwind swaying her here and there, and tossing her from one dead end to another. “Somebody please tell me..help me.” she called. No one answered. No body heard her pleas.

She was lost; utterly lost in the shower of questions she asked. Her life turned into a mystery even she could not unravel; an endless labyrinth that she lost her way in and was leading her to self-destruction.

Her pleas went unanswered as she pleaded over and over again. Not knowing what to look for and what to do, she had no choice but to keep on looking, and asking more questions despite the fear and loss she felt.

However, in the midst of the darkness, a flicker of light appeared. It was the hope in her heart. She clung to it and didn’t let go despite her fear of not finding the answers to her questions. It was the only ray of light that illuminated her path towards her goal no matter how far it was. It led her to the answers after being astray for so long.

Hold on to hope, surely your dream will come true someday.

Little One

Don’t frown little one

The sun will come out again

Hold your dreams in your heart,

and pray with every tear you shed that they will come true someday

Be strong little one

And hold your head up high

Surely your dreams will come true

And happiness will shine upon you again

Have faith and you will see

That someday you will be loved again

Don’t forget to smile little one

Your sorrow will be over soon

Just wait and you will see

That there is someone for you out there

Who will hold you dear to his heart

and will love you and cherish you for who you are

Little one..

Always keep a prayer in your heart

And remember that you are loved…always.

I Dreamed

I dreamed a dream once upon a time of a land so far, far away.

Beyond the sky, beyond the stars, beyond the universe,

Of a place I cannot reach.

Where birds are flying, and cherubs are dancing,

Where dreams come true, and life’s worth living,

 

I dreamed a dream of never ending laughter,

I dreamed a dream of eternal happiness and serenity,

Of a world without hate and grief

Where I was young, and I was happy

 

I heard a voice as soft as breeze.

Calling me there, to that world beyond me

Come to me and let me take you,

To that world you’ve always yearned for

 

I looked around for that voice around me

And saw an angel right there beside me

I reached out my hand, and flew away to that world beyond me.

 

Dreams on Fire

I saw my dreams on fire

Burning away, turning into dust, and scattered by the wind

to a place I cannot reach nor go to

A transparent wall standing in my way..

I can see them, and admire them but I’m forbidden from touching them..and realizing them.

They were gone, and I could never get them back.

My heart’s aching, I cannot breath; my visions blurring, I cannot see; my tears falling, washing away whatever hope I had; my body’s trembling, as I see them drift away to a place I cannot reach

They are my dreams, my magic in the world and my hope in an unforgiving and harsh world.

They’re gone..

 

They are gone, but I cant help clinging to them..to the end

Greif

It all came rushing back to me. Like a tidal wave, sweeping me off my feet and tossing me unto the sharp rocks. Piercing every inch of my body and flesh. Tearing me apart, limb-by-limb until nothing is left of me but shreds and pieces.

All the things that happened to me and I thought were long gone..came back pushing through the whirlwind in my mind..

What should I do? What can I do? How can I make it go away?

I don’t know. I’m lost in my thoughts. Thoughts drenched in darkness, grief, hatred, fear..unbearable pain.

It’s eating me alive. I can’t find my way..I cant fight it. I thought I let go of it long ago. But, it is there glaring at me, tormenting me and reminding me of my failures and flaws.

  When will the spark of dawn appear?

O’ star

She gazed up at the night sky and her soul floated upward, powerless against its seduction. Like a lost child who finally found his way and is blinded by the pleasure of being back to where he belongs.  She soared like a bird…to the eternally blazing stars illuminating the night sky.

She went, not looking back to the place she once called home. She floated faster and faster..up to the sky where she will live eternally, alongside her own kind “the stars”… how did she lose her way and ended up on earth? She doesn’t know…part of her life was lost. But, it didn’t matter now that she’s home and know who she really is.

She gazed down on earth and remembered the life she once had there. The smell of flowers in early spring, the heat of the sun in summer, the frosty streets in winter, and the sensation of the autumn wind on her face.

She remembered the people she met, those whom she came to love and respect. Never did she imagine that someday she will have to say goodbye, for they will not see her again as she was before. But, in spite if the distance that lied between them, she will always be watching over them, from up there in the sky.