Lost

She flipped through the pages of her life looking for a clue to the cause that made her the way she is today. She skimmed the faces she saw, the incidents that happened, the conversations she had; yet an answer did not come.

Why am I like this? What happened to me? Why did I give up hope? When did I lose my way? Why did I go astray? Endless questions forming in her mind, like a whirlwind swaying her here and there, and tossing her from one dead end to another. “Somebody please tell me..help me.” she called. No one answered. No body heard her pleas.

She was lost; utterly lost in the shower of questions she asked. Her life turned into a mystery even she could not unravel; an endless labyrinth that she lost her way in and was leading her to self-destruction.

Her pleas went unanswered as she pleaded over and over again. Not knowing what to look for and what to do, she had no choice but to keep on looking, and asking more questions despite the fear and loss she felt.

However, in the midst of the darkness, a flicker of light appeared. It was the hope in her heart. She clung to it and didn’t let go despite her fear of not finding the answers to her questions. It was the only ray of light that illuminated her path towards her goal no matter how far it was. It led her to the answers after being astray for so long.

Hold on to hope, surely your dream will come true someday.

Little One

Don’t frown little one

The sun will come out again

Hold your dreams in your heart,

and pray with every tear you shed that they will come true someday

Be strong little one

And hold your head up high

Surely your dreams will come true

And happiness will shine upon you again

Have faith and you will see

That someday you will be loved again

Don’t forget to smile little one

Your sorrow will be over soon

Just wait and you will see

That there is someone for you out there

Who will hold you dear to his heart

and will love you and cherish you for who you are

Little one..

Always keep a prayer in your heart

And remember that you are loved…always.

I Dreamed

I dreamed a dream once upon a time of a land so far, far away.

Beyond the sky, beyond the stars, beyond the universe,

Of a place I cannot reach.

Where birds are flying, and cherubs are dancing,

Where dreams come true, and life’s worth living,

 

I dreamed a dream of never ending laughter,

I dreamed a dream of eternal happiness and serenity,

Of a world without hate and grief

Where I was young, and I was happy

 

I heard a voice as soft as breeze.

Calling me there, to that world beyond me

Come to me and let me take you,

To that world you’ve always yearned for

 

I looked around for that voice around me

And saw an angel right there beside me

I reached out my hand, and flew away to that world beyond me.

 

Dreams on Fire

I saw my dreams on fire

Burning away, turning into dust, and scattered by the wind

to a place I cannot reach nor go to

A transparent wall standing in my way..

I can see them, and admire them but I’m forbidden from touching them..and realizing them.

They were gone, and I could never get them back.

My heart’s aching, I cannot breath; my visions blurring, I cannot see; my tears falling, washing away whatever hope I had; my body’s trembling, as I see them drift away to a place I cannot reach

They are my dreams, my magic in the world and my hope in an unforgiving and harsh world.

They’re gone..

 

They are gone, but I cant help clinging to them..to the end

Greif

It all came rushing back to me. Like a tidal wave, sweeping me off my feet and tossing me unto the sharp rocks. Piercing every inch of my body and flesh. Tearing me apart, limb-by-limb until nothing is left of me but shreds and pieces.

All the things that happened to me and I thought were long gone..came back pushing through the whirlwind in my mind..

What should I do? What can I do? How can I make it go away?

I don’t know. I’m lost in my thoughts. Thoughts drenched in darkness, grief, hatred, fear..unbearable pain.

It’s eating me alive. I can’t find my way..I cant fight it. I thought I let go of it long ago. But, it is there glaring at me, tormenting me and reminding me of my failures and flaws.

  When will the spark of dawn appear?

O’ star

She gazed up at the night sky and her soul floated upward, powerless against its seduction. Like a lost child who finally found his way and is blinded by the pleasure of being back to where he belongs.  She soared like a bird…to the eternally blazing stars illuminating the night sky.

She went, not looking back to the place she once called home. She floated faster and faster..up to the sky where she will live eternally, alongside her own kind “the stars”… how did she lose her way and ended up on earth? She doesn’t know…part of her life was lost. But, it didn’t matter now that she’s home and know who she really is.

She gazed down on earth and remembered the life she once had there. The smell of flowers in early spring, the heat of the sun in summer, the frosty streets in winter, and the sensation of the autumn wind on her face.

She remembered the people she met, those whom she came to love and respect. Never did she imagine that someday she will have to say goodbye, for they will not see her again as she was before. But, in spite if the distance that lied between them, she will always be watching over them, from up there in the sky.

 

Thumping Heart

The clock was ticking.

Tick..tock..tick..tock..

Time is passing by

My heart thumping with every passing moment that is never to come back again

How long is it going to take?

Tick..tock..

When is it going to happen?

Tick..tock..

The day me heart stops beating

The day my body turns cold, and is laid down in its final resting place

The day with no turning back

Am I ready for it?

Am I prepared to face God, my creator?